There is no call to the ministry that is not first a call to Christ. You dare not lift your hands to place God’s name in blessing on his people until you have first clasped them in in penitent petition for his saving grace. Until you have done that the issue you face is not really your call to the ministry. It is your call to Christ.
Don’t seek the ministry to save your soul. The Lord commits the gospel to the keeping of those who have committed themselvs to his keeping (II Tim. 1:12, 14). A man cannot earn his salvation by preaching that salvation cannot be earned. Claim Christ’s promise: “He that cometh unto me I will in no wise cast out.” He will receive you, and make his name yours forever.
“Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began” (II Tim. 1:9).
Edmund P. Clowney, Called to the Ministry, p. 5